Words that repeat themselves in my brain,
thoughts that once conquered my mind.
Song Lyrics
01. Waiting For Freedom
An endless round way
Running like no tomorrow
My crystal cage to stay
All my choices feel hollow
No easy way
I depend on others
Waiting on my daily feed
This is no living, just surviving
I hate my maker
I need to escape
I need to live
See the true colors
Enjoy myself
I have but one chance
I live with closed eyes
Waiting for freedom
I’ll keep just waiting
Nothing happens
I depend on others
Waiting on my daily feed
This is no living, just surviving
I hate my maker
I need to escape
I need to live
See the true colors
Enjoy myself
I have but one chance
02. Forbidden Light
Take it away, take it away
I’m banned from the light
Take it away, take it away
I’m not supposed to shine
Go away, forbidden light
Go away
The price you’ll pay
Life full of dark
I can’t live, I can’t love
I can only laugh
I’m not worthy of your sacrifice
Your shine drains by my side
Take it away, take it away
I’m banned from the light
Take it away, take it away
I’m not supposed to shine
Go away, forbidden light
Go away
The price you’ll pay
Life full of dark
Go away, forbidden light
Your glow grows weaker
With me around
I can’t live, I can’t love
I can only laugh
I’m not worthy of your sacrifice
Your shine drains by my side
Go away, forbidden light
Go away
The price you’ll pay
Life full of dark
I can’t live, I can’t love
I can only laugh
Your glow grows weaker
With me around
03. Intoxicating Gas
Intoxicating gas
Deceive the temper crushing reality
Exquisite frustration
Go home, go home
And what is home?
a place to extinguish the fire
And what is home?
A place to vanish, survive the fall
Go home, go home
Stay home, stay home
And what is home?
a place to extinguish the fire
And what is home?
A place to vanish, survive the fall
Intoxicating gas
Deceive the temper crushing reality
Exquisite frustration
Just stay home, just stay home
Go to sleep, go to sleep
04. This Far
We climb up mountains
Among trees
Bruises and scratches
Over your knees
You slip, You fall
Three meters downhill
Breaking your will
To start again
Please try again
I follow you
You’ve made it so far
You don’t think much of who you are
I’ll be here til you see
How much you learned
How much you learned this far
We wind through the trees
Dark and cold
No rest, no peace
No guiding moonlight
You slip, you fall
Then crash to the floor
You feel so tired
You move no more.
Please rise again
I follow you
You’ve made it so far
You don’t think much of who you are
I’ll be here til you see
How much you learned
How much you learned this far
You learned the way is hard
Just how life sometimes gets
I follow you because
We learn from our regrets
I follow you
You’ve made it so far
You don’t think much of who you are
I’ll be here til you see
How much you learned
How much you learned this far
06. Acabar Así
Siente el corazón tan apartado
La distancia en la cima
La ignorancia lastima
Tanto gana con esas mentiras
Tome cuanto desea
Cruza el lago y la arena
Raíces de hierro
Escarlata que fluye en sí
Filtrará una vez más
Su ignorancia corromperé
Su inocencia lastimaré
Y con la razón tan repartida
Decisiones se marchan
Alguien debe saludar
El erizo con su amor
dulcemente le mata
Sin querer, sin hablar
No quiera luchar
No quiera gritar
No quiera desear
No quiera golpear
No quiera luchar
No quiera gritar
No quiera desear
No quería acabar así
Raíces de hierro
Escarlata que fluye en sí
Filtrará una vez más
Su inocencia corromperé
Su ignorancia lastimaré
Su existencia defenderé
Su apariencia extenderé
07. Courage
Every day I fight for my life
Every day in cloud cuckoo land
Noone cares, why should I?
Every day I fight for my life...
Everything you see inside your mind
Everything you feel inside your mind
Everything you fear inside your mind
is it real?
I can’t look back I know it’s there
I can’t escape from my own mind
Noone cares, why should I?
Every day I fight for my life...
Every day you fight for your life...
Anything I see is it even real?
Anything I feel is it even real?
Anything I fear is it even real?
Tell me, is it real?
It looks at me, I cover my eyes
It talks to me, I cover my ears
Noone cares, why should I?
Our arms covered in stripes
It yells at me, I hold my tears
And our chest, crusting stars.
Only one, one more time
Only one, one more time
Dripping on your...
Dripping on your tiles
Only today gotta let it out
Only today gotta hold back
Only today gotta stitch it back
Only today gotta survive
It takes courage giving in
It takes more courage showing your tears
It takes courage giving in
It takes much more courage showing your tears
08. Light Of The Night
Hold your clout
All of it is fake
Hold your clout
All’s in your head
Lights are out
Look at your mistakes
Feel how easy it breaks
Hold your clout
All’s in your head
Look at your mistakes
Feel how easy it breaks
I'm busy
This isn't the end
We know you want it too
Look at yourself
We’re staring back at you
Please mercy and food
We won't go away
Please mercy and food
You're not busy
Help
I know you can hear me
But you rather not
You think coffee's worth it
Drink, just drink
In the light of the night i cry
No, don’t turn them off now
I'M BUSY
Look around yourself
How much they aged
Mirrors make you cry
Are you busy still?
This isn't the end
We know you want it too
Look at yourself
We’re staring back at you
Please mercy and food
We won't go away
Please mercy and food
You're not busy
Help
I know you can love me
But you rather not
Regret won’t save you
Drink, keep drinking and leaking
AND SCREECHING AND SPLITTING AND SCREAMING AND DREAMING AND SLICING AND CRYING AND LAUGHING AND
Hold your clout
All’s in your head
Lights are out
Look at your mistakes
Feel how easy it breaks
Hold your clout
All’s in your head
Look at your mistakes
Feel how easy it breaks
09. Destiny Says
If destiny won’t let me be with you,
What will I do?
If destiny says no
Would it be the end
The end of us?
When destiny says no
Would it be the end
The end of me?
Destiny says no
And I try, and I fight
And I scream and I cry
And I ask again
If destiny won’t let me be with you,
What will I do?
Destiny says no
And I try, and I fight
And I scream and I cry
And I ask again
But destiny says no
And I try, and I fight
And I scream and I cry
And I ask again
10. It Smiles
It keeps all day
Reflecting my pain
I look away
I can’t bare it’s face
Don’t stare at it
Don't stare at it
It’ll stare back
It heals while I hurt
It smiles while I cry
I heal while It hurts
I smile while it cries
I smile while it cries
Its tears are mine
All its burdens
On top me
I can’t get out
Out of this bed
Don’t smile at it
Don’t smile at it
It’ll smile back
It’ll smile back
It’ll smile
It heals while I hurt
It smiles while I cry
I heal while It hurts
I smile while it cries
I smile while it cries
Its tears are mine
Don't smile at me
Quit smiling at me
You heal while I hurt
You smile while I cry
I heal while you hurt
I smile while you cry
I smile while you cry
I smile while you cry
your... your tears are-
Eat me while I’m down
Enjoy while I hurt
Spill me all around
YOU KNOW I'LL BE FINE
I CAN'T BARE YOUR FACE
YOUR TEARS ARE MINE
Music, lyrics and artwork
G.Rizo [GaelRice]
English lyrics assistance
Carl Evans
Special thanks
To my mom, for being my #1 fan
To my therapists. I wouldn't be here without them
To Carl, my husband, my sunshine. He's neat.